Avoidance is my middle name these days. In fact, I wrote that sentence and paused to watch reality tv for a full 5 minutes before coming back to the post. What am I avoiding? My blog. Why am I avoiding my blog? Because I feel like an utter weight loss failure. I realized I am successful at losing and gaining the same 20lbs for the past 20.5 months.
I am on a gaining cycle right now. That 16lbs that I lost has been gained back in the past month. Why? I would love to blame it on my sister, who, since staying with us for the past 5 weeks has brought every type of cookie, cake, ice cream and bad habit into my house. But she just brought the temptation, I am the one who gave in. I knew I was gaining, but avoided the scale. Instead, I went back to old habits of daily fast food breakfast, diet coke instead of water and an uncontrollable desire for sweets. I have had some good days mixed in, but not enough to make a difference.
So today I confess my sins and tomorrow I wake up with a clean slate. Steel cut oats are cooked and packed up for tomorrow's breakfast, as well as a beans and greens soup and salad for lunch. The Bodybugg is charged and the workout clothes are packed. I am planning on going back to Slimmons tomorrow night. I have been gone for a few weeks due to work schedule. I am also joining the gym at my work and will be doing early morning workouts on the off Slimmons days. Tomorrow, will also be a weigh in day for me just so I have a starting point using my scale. No more of the weight loss management program weigh ins, so now it is time to start tracking on my own scale.
Here I go again.