Hi Blogland! I have had a nutso week and as a result have been self medicating with food. I am sure the scale will tell the tale tomorrow when I weigh in. I can imagine that it won't be pretty.
Holly has been home for the past day and a half day with a fever of 103. (This is the part where I break into Foreigner's Hot Blooded...) Poor baby went to the doctor, got her ears flushed and learned she had an ear infection to boot. We are in cuddle, snuggle, and nurture mode right now. The good news she should be better in the next 48 hours.
Since Holly has been sick, I have had a lot of quiet time to think and talk to myself as she sleeps in my arms. I am pretty disgusted with myself and my eating, lack of energy to exercise, etc. Believe me folks, I have a deep desire to be 100% committed to a new healthy lifestyle and making my 135 by 2012 goal, however, I can't seem to stay on track. I let any ordinary obstacle get in my way and derail me even if I have only been on track for a day or even a half day. I have to find a way to break this cycle and stick with it once and for all. I am so tired of coming to this blog and having to update that I haven't made any progress. I want to be one of my many blog friend inspirations with success stories, pictures and a new active lifestyle to report and in turn do my part to inspire others.
I have been toying with the idea of finding a nutritionist who can help me break this addiction to food in general but most specifically, fast food and sugar. I have been having intense cravings for both and am losing the battle and caving in to my "drugs". I of course am tired of spending $ on weight loss efforts and don't want someone who is going to tell me what I already know, or developing meal plans that I can create myself for free on Sparkpeople.com. (My favorite website!) So I did some research...
I found a program that will be basically be free for me (after insurance pays) since the providers are linked to the university I work for. This program focuses on lifestyle redesign, including the obvious nutritional component, but with the added benefits of stress and time management, balancing work and personal life, incorporating the needed healthy lifestyle changes in your already hectic schedule, etc... HELLO, these are all the reasons I have been siting as the blame for my continued failure at this journey. I found the website too late tonight to call for an appointment, but Monday, I will be making the call. I figure with no out of pocket expense, why not try it? Nothing to lose, right? If I like what they have to say in my consult and decide to participate in the program, I will be sure to document my experience. Fingers crossed this helps!
In other exciting news, I received in the mail today my loot from Katie J! I will share with you all tomorrow my new exercise book and may even show a pic or two of me attempting some of the moves with my super cool new water bottle by my side. Thanks, Katie!
Happy weekend everyone :)